Back on track!
My motivation was completely gone. I have been eating like crap for the past month. Trying to blame every one and everything else than myself. But i am done blaming. Only I can make this weight loss happen and I am ready to keep working on it.
My biggest blame have been on all the crappy food there is in the house here. As I am not living by myself I can't control what food there is! Let me be honest it isn't healthy chooses that you will find here. The pantry is full of Sweet bread and other Christmas treats. All stuff that I LOVE!!! Dam it is hard to resist it when it calls your name! I have been mad at people for bringing shit like that to the house, as it would be much easier if it wasn't there. But more important I have been mad at myself for not saying NO to crappy food!
I am done complaining! (at least for a little bit). I found my will power again and I am so ready to see those numbers go down again. You might wonder where I found my motivation. I found it in my host mom!! I don't get to see her as much as I would LOVE to. As a matter of fact I haven't seen her for over a year. But now it is time. I am going there in February and before that I wanna loss more weight. She is my big inspiration as she always believe that I could loss weight together with the fact that she made me realize what I was doing to my body! It was a good wake up call!!!!
It is my goal to be under 95 kg. Which is 6 kg away. I know I can do it.
Going to the State is amazing!!! I am going to shop like crazy, I am going to spend time with some amazing people that I love. And hopefully I will be able to hike at Multnomah Falls, this time with out feeling like I am dead! :D